giving myself some grace…..
With all of the recent changes in our home, we are slowly learning a new “norm”. It hasn’t been easy, but we’re getting there.
One thing I’ve realized, though, is that it’s been hard for me to allow myself the grace to take things slowly right now.
There’s a part of me that wants to get back to our routine and carry on like we used to.
January was a month of sickness and we are just now getting to where everyone is healthy. Yet, though we are healthy, we are emotionally exhausted. And I do mean exhausted.
No matter how much sleep my husband and I get right now, it’s just not enough.
My brain is constantly going and I can’t shut it off for anything. No matter what I’m doing, my brain is going a hundred miles an hour….and it’s exhausting.
Just this morning, I was thinking over this past week, and I realized that I had been pretty hard on myself.
I was frustrated with myself for letting the kids sleep in late, because according to my thinking we should be getting an earlier start on our day.
And I struggled with the fact that I’ve let my kids play more wii and Webkinz than usual…and surely that must be wrong somehow.
As I was beating myself up over all of this just this morning, I felt God showing me that I need to show myself some grace.
I need to take a good look at what’s going on in our lives right now, and really evaluate how I’m caring for my family.
And as I did that, I realized that what I’ve been doing–or not doing–in the past few weeks, has come out of love for my kids and out of my care for them.
I realized that it hasn’t hurt them to sleep in…as a matter of fact, it’s probably helped them avoid some of the yucky stuff going around right now.
And so what if we’re not starting school at 9:00 a.m. every day…what’s important is that we are getting school done and the kids aren’t stressed out.
As a mom, I think it’s really hard for us to cut ourselves some slack and follow our hearts.
But I’m learning that when I do, I am serving my family in ways they will never forget.
**so, how do you do at cutting yourself some slack?