Survival: a new season
I have so much to say and yet, my thoughts are so jumbled that I don’t know where to begin.
There just doesn’t seem to be a right way to start.
I can honestly say that for the past 8 months or so, I have been in SURVIVAL mode.
It seems that I have gone from one season of survival to another. Ever been there?
I mean, seriously, I feel as though the dust just begins to clear a bit and then Im right back in the storm….a new storm.
Some of you know that my dad passed away just under 3 months ago, and that his death was extremely hard for me.
I have just begun to come to a place where I can see more light than darkness in my days, and then this past Sunday life as we knew it turned upside down.
Imagine my surprise when my 18 year old daughter ,who is only half way through her senior year of high school informed us that she was moving out—right now.
Her reason: she was tired of being under authority. She feels that once you’re 18 there’s no more need for authority.
Wow….if only that we’re true, but we who are believers know better.
I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. And I couldn’t believe the searing pain that was going through my heart. I stood there, just staring at her and asking her questions to get her to think about what she’s doing.
But she was determined and there was no getting through to her.
My husband tried to reason with her as well. But again, there was no use.
There was no yelling or arguing….only tears and a family feeling ripped apart.
I haven’t heard from her since Sunday, but i do know where she is. She is in a safe home with a family we love, yet her heart is still resolved to not coming back.
She will be with this family through the weekend, but there’s no plan for after that point.
My husband and I will meet with 2 of our pastors tomorrow to discuss things.
My week has been spent shedding lots of tears and picking up the broken pieces of my other kid’s hearts.
I have faith that God IS Sovereign over this whole mess
and I know that he will work all things together for his good.
What that’s going to look like, I don’t know.
But right now, we are just standing on the Solid Rock Who can not be shaken.