doing the next thing…
oday i have just been doing the next thing. simply putting one foot in front of the other.
the past few days have been hard. the depression has been throwing out the lie that i need to isolate myself and shut everyone out. and it’s literally been a fight to not give in to the temptation.
and everything that has come my way, wether it be arguing children, doing the grocery shopping, running someone to an appointment, or something so simple as making dinner, has quite frankly been overwhelming.
i’m reading the Word. every morning. and i believe it to be true.
but let me tell you, it’s a fight to hang on to the Word and to trust that there’s a purpose for this struggle.
there are days when i wonder if God sees me as a failure because i’m struggling and just can’t snap out of it….it’s like i know i’m trying, but i feel as though no one else, not even God, can see that i am.
it’s not surprising to me at all that God chooses to show up in big ways on these especially hard days. it’s SO like him to do that.
i was reading this post from katie today and i cried through the whole thing. i mean, it was like she had been sitting across the table from me, talking straight to me. it’s no doubt a God-thing.
a little later, i was reading this post from ann voskamp and i was blown away at her description of how she felt…so like me, and yet, she found Hope in the One who give us the strength to carry on.
how like God to show up the way he does…….
taste and see that the Lord, he is good…..